Hello elevatedsoul,

I see you post on here often and am never sure what to say because you always say so much, it is hard for me to keep track. But it is quite obvious to me that you have been through quite a painful past, and are going through a painful time at the present.

In your last post you mentioned wanting to find someone to save you. Unfortunately that will not happen. The only person who can save you, is you. Sure, you can get help from a psychiatrist or therapist, you can have support of family and friends, but they cannot dig you out of this hole.

I love this website and spend quite a bit of time here on the chat, or checking out the forums, but it does concern me when someone posts very often because I can't help but think: "How much is this helping the person, and how much is it holding them back?" When we make constant negative posts about where we are in life and why it sucks...that only gets us so far. It doesn't help us to move forward, rather, it keeps us stuck. I am getting the feeling that you are stuck right now, and I wish I could help you get unstuck but unfortunately that will be up to you. I encourage you to think about what things you can do to get to that place in life you want to be.