i dunno why but i keep getting pushed over this cliff....

i pick myself up and dust myself off and they push me over it again...

it gets harder and harder to pick myself up again and again you know...

im so tired of this ******** they put me through....

im feeling scared... im scared of shutting down...

i dont want to shut down

if i shut down i know it will be near impossible to get myself out of this hole...