I have this recurring nightmare, that is similar, that i get back together with my ex-husbands, then realize i made a big mistake again, and how am i going to tell them. Its really a horrible horrible nightmare!

Maybe think about - shes playing like she is the weak one, but she is really the strong one here, isnt she? She is getting HER way, and YOU are the weak one. That kinda stinks. If you want her to boss you around for the rest of your life, then keep doing what youre doing. Only you can decide what you really want.