just because you decided to "forgive" him, it doesnt mean you "accept" him. To accept him would be to accept that he is a person with the capacity to cheat. To accept him is to acknowledge there is a chance that it could happen again without fear but awareness.

Does that mean you spend each waking hour worrying about when it might happen? No. Not if you actually want to have something with him, which includes the part of him that is weak and may cheat. You would have to simply accept what happened, the way he is, and that it could happen, without being paranoid of when. If you want to be with him anyway, he, a person who has cheated, then your only option is to deal with it if it does happen, and only then. Not worry if it will happen. It may not happen again at all, but your obsessive thoughts about it happening will not prevent it from happening. It will happen anyway if it was going to. So staying with him and worrying about it until it happens will not yield any different results versus staying with him and NOT worrying about it until it happens... Except you will save yourself all the stress up until then. I don't know if that helps at all. I'm not going to tell you to leave him. I'm just saying if you want to stay, you need to accept what he is. Its like living next to a volcano. It could go off. It could not. But it IS a volcano and it absolutely does Posess the ability to erupt. That is certain. But if you want to live next to it, you cant spend the rest of your life worrying if it will erupt. You just have to manage it if it does. If you are going to worry if it will erupt all the time.. For your sanity you will have to move. If you get what I'm saying with that.. Metaphor.