I hate feeling like this. I have been out of bed for more than three hours today, which is a better record than these past four or five days.

I've dealt with deep and dark depression many times over. However, I haven't been so depressed that I can't get up in three or four years.

I'm out of bed now and it scares the hell out of me. This entire time of being up, I've gone from my anxious extreme and back down to my At the moment, I'm dealing more with the latter.

I can't keep staying miserable like this forever. I just can't.