It's kinda hard for me to explain what's going on in my head because I really don't exactly know. I have feelings but it's almost like they aren't real or aren't valid it's like I can't trust my thoughts idk if I really truly feel that way or that's just something I desire to feel. Sometimes it's like I need to force emotion like for example I should be feeling a certain way as a reaction to a situation. It makes me seem heartless but other times my emotions are way too intense like sadness or over happiness there's no in between other then the unsure feeling of what exactly I should feel in that moment. But I'm not completely emotionless like I said I feel intense sadness and happiness but what kinda scares me I should be able to know what exactly I feel but I don't it's like I need to think of an emotion and reenact it to myself. What's wrong with me ?