To be even more honest I found his profile on a dating website a few weeks ago, blamed me that he didn't trust me and he would screw me over before I did him. And now I come home from work this morning to figure out that he went out after I left at 10:30...wth. Claimed to go smoke a cigar...than why not answer my text. I know I need to go, but I love him more than I've ever loved anyone before. I just feel devastated right now