blue, I wish I could just come and get you and your brother...I would do it, I just don't have the words to express how I feel right now and even if I could pour out my heart her in this forum it would'nt do you much good. maybe all I can do is pray for you and your brother but know this, we're all here for you and your brother...we care about you both,so much! please stay in touch here okay? your friend, jeff