Well, I couldn't think of subject line, so I'm sorry about that. But I really felt the need to talk about this, and theres no one I trust right about now to say it to.

So I ended up seeing a psychiatrist today, and was half in hysterics, having been fighting really hard not to cry in socials [and I was really mean to a few people who had started asking me why I looked so weird]. She started talkign to me about if anything had been bothering me lately, or how life was going. So I told her that my parents are trying to kill me, and that I hadn't been sleeping or eating becuase my food is poisioned and they might kill me while I sleep. To which she replied that she thought that it was a delusion, brought my dad in [luckily I escaped to somewhere else], and gave me a prescription. Now, I trust her, and I trust doctors to know what they're doing, but it's really scary and kind of odd to be put on anti-psychotics just like that [I'm on a low dose of Risperdal]. And now I'm all worried about if I'm going to gain weight, since I'm already worried about my weight when I have no reason to be. And I don't think I'm delusional.

And I know that I've always been private person, and that I really don't like sharing things with others, but right now I'm terrified of all these things and I don't have anyone out there to say something to. Even when I have said anything to my few friends, they don't want to hear it, or ignore me, or completely change the subject.

And my parents are trying to kill me. Not my best option right now.

So yeah, I've just been trying to act completely normal, and I have, but I'm kind of dying away inside. I just need to say something to someone.
Sorry for wasting your time.

Thank-you.