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Originally Posted by healed84
I suppose you don't mind because I think if you thought I was emailing too much you would perhaps suggest going to two times a week until I get more stable, but I really doubt you have room in your schedule for that right now.
Can you tell I am thinking about emailing your right now??
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Originally Posted by healed84
Ugh.. so, I emailed again.. I last initiated an email 4 days ago- then we had a brief exchange of short emails. I think before then it was a week. I am sooooo afraid I am too much.
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I am sorry you are struggling so much
Your T seems like a good one, so I am going to re-iterate what my T has told me about this issue. She said she would never be angry that I was emailing too much. She said if I emailed every day, it probably showed her that maybe I need a higher level of care than what she could provide right then. But she wouldn't be mad. She also said that she knows when I e-mail, I am in distress, so she understands.
I also don't think from what you described, that is considered "too much" emailing. When I am doing well, I can go a few weeks to a month or so without ever needing to email my T. When I am not doing well, it is usually 2 or 3 times a week, with sometimes a phone call added in!
That has never bothered her. I know how it feels to be worried, but I am guessing that your T isn't worried that is "too much," and also, he would have a conversation with you about it, and not just take it away.
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Originally Posted by atisketatasket
I don't know. I don't think anyone - certainly not members of your legendarily obtuse profession - understands how fragile I still am. So I don't know if I'm up to our planned "discussion." Because I think you'll think your need, however unconscious, to maintain your positive self-image at all costs - ego whatchamacallit - will overcome any potential concern for me.
(Not sure whether I'm addressing CW or 3 here. It applies to both, but the last sentence much more to CW.)
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I agree that you should probably stop seeing CW. But I wonder if you somehow come off as being much more okay than you feel inside. Even when I read your posts about how unwell you are doing, it seems to be sort of cut off from the emotional side of it, if that makes sense. Also, it is through words and not in person--so I could be WAY off.
But if you think she wouldn't be able to provide a good response, I'd email her the letter as well.
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Originally Posted by junkDNA
Don't waste
Your time
On me
You're already a
Voice
Inside my head
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Blink 182? If so, awesome!
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Originally Posted by ruh roh
I keep having this nightmare where I leave your office in tears and walk right into a wedding procession, get my picture taken, and turn to you for help, but you stand in your doorway, confused and unable to save me.
Oh no, wait. This actually happened.
And I still cannot believe it. But you won't hear me say another word about it because for whatever reason, I feel like therapy is the last place I want to be.
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Are you upset at your T for this? It seems like something that caught you both by surprise. I hope you can talk to her more about it.
Hey T: I haven't seen you in sooo long! I know 2 weeks isn't very much, but I feel like a lot has happened. I am looking forward to this evening.