I was married for 14 years and I went through Verbal,Phycial ,Sexual,and mental abuse for the lat 6 years of my marriage and now Im having a hard time just asking someone out I have medical proplems:Oseosrthritis, Bi Polar disorder, PTSD from the marriage andmy Case manager has been working with me she asked me the last time she was over here was anyone I could ask out to go to a movie she knows how lonley I have been and how hard ai have worked to slove some of the problems I had I was a homeless veteran and I lived in several places with other veterans before I got my apartment on a Veterans houising grant which is for 5 years and is renewable after that. Soon after I moved in a friend of mine Melissa moved in we are Best friends and she is dating now she just started seeing someone she was seeing before but broke it off with him. I dont have anyonein my life but my case manager Karen and Melissa my Best Friend. What I want to do is meet someone just to date when I see thenm together it just reinforces the fact that I am alone I quess when she wasnt dating we hung out a lot and had fun I didnt really think about not having a girl friend sahe met him online on MYSpace I tried to meet womenthere but I didnt have much luck one I met in Penacols, fl she didnt like and caught her in several lies on the phone Melissa is very protective of me because of the brain tumor surgery my judement is not so good in these areas and thats another reason that maybe I have fer of asking someone out for a date the only women I can ask are the ones ion recovery iun AA ansd I had been going to NA before this and hadnt meet anyone there yet so I thought AA has a club housre and they have things going on all the time so maybe I could meet someone thier Itb seemsa lot easier for her to get a date tyhan it is for me I dont know what to do. I have to change the way my life is going I sit here far to long online during the day because thats all i can do when I take my Pain medication Methadone In cvan drive but when I take the POerocet i cant go anywhere Ikm stuck here so I will just have to be in pain to go to more meetings and hopefully I will met someone there I havent givin up and I jhave driven to the meetings I satin pain and I wanted to go home I didnt want to go ewat with a bunch of people I wanted to ask someone to go with me only and hang out get to know each other Melissa says im a great guy and I have been very good to her as a best friend but I need to grow and get past this my Nero doctor asked me the same question if i had anyone I could ask out and I had to tell the truth that I didnt have anyone to ask being alone only makes the pain and the depression worse its s trap that I need help with and Im hoping someoneout there who ahs beenthrough this can help me Im so tireed of typing in blogs and formsand not getting anywhere so here it is?