I am doing a little better now. I ended up getting into a huge argument with my husband and told him everything I said here. We talked about it all for a long time and both agreed we need to try to make some changes. He has been more attentive lately which makes me feel a lot better to have him to talk to again. We have a long way to go before we can get to where we want to be but we are working on it. I was able to avoid relapsing too.