Thank Blue. My writing skills are decent. I've considered writing a book but then I realize my kids will read it and the stuff I could write which would get people reading is not the kind of stuff I want my kids to read. I'm not closeted, I've been in the mental health system for 30 years almost. I've done too much to hide it....people know. Maybe I could move out of my city and go underground but I think hiding is killing me so I need to be out and open about all this for my own health. I did hide it for years....back when I could. Those days have been over for a long time though. I did well in my public speaking class but don't know how easy a gig motivational speaking is to get your foot in the door. Who knows though. I've always been drawn to social work. I need a strategy and goal to work towards. Just taking a college course will be a start I guess. I want to take a class this fall if I can recover enough by then. Thanks for your input Blue. (((Hugs)))