My goodness no! I don't think your decisions are miserable and I apologize for any offense taken. It was sincerely not intended. I didn't see your post of lack of identity and emptiness behind your life decisions. Had I, I would have empathized and offered my support.

Miserable was a poor word choice. I was not reading your literal decisions as much as some of the thoughts and emotions behind them. Having trouble asking for help, being socially frozen, always feeling like it's you against the world and always having to feel on guard filled me with compassion and that's how I should have worded it. I do apologize and wish you the best with your internship.