I feel very alone. I want to have something to do with my days and people to be around. I don't know WHY this is so hard to have. I have many interests, and I know I could volunteer. I think sometimes my problem is I imagine what it will be like before i do it, and it always feels boring, or too overwhelming, and then don't want to do it, and don't do it, based on how I'm feeling. A lot of the time, I just don't feel like it. Today I had a volunteer interview at a hospital. I cancelled because I felt like I don't really want to volunteer in a hospital, and the directions she gave me to find the volunteer office felt confusing, and it's raining, and i didn't want to deal. But now I'm home, alone, and very sad. If someone could help or be supportive, I'd appreciate it. I feel like absolute *****. I need to figure out a plan. I need to figure out what to do.