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I thought I had enough rarities in my life having DID, meeting the criteria for schizophrenia for years and now residual, ...
I am suffering from depression right now...
Today I saw my therapist. We talked about college issues and failure. It seems I am rare between the gifted people. I am rare because it seems I am above highly gifted. I keep passing examns without seriously studying while I am in one of the hardest programs of my country.
I am suffering from apathy, hopelessness and anxiety because everything is so easy and boring. Even getting a perfect mark feel like nothing because I almost don't do anything to pass them. I don't feel any reward.
I feel weird, rare in a bad sense.
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Crazy, inside and aside
Meds: bye bye meds
CPTSD and some sort of depression and weird perceptions
"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-
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