If you live in the US there are lots of places where you can get more information, like NAMI or Crisis/suicide prevention. Or if you can get in to see your doctor. Counselors are supposed to keep information confidential. Your local hospital may also provide you with what's available in your area. You sound as if you may be young, this is a common age for these disorders to develop. It has been shown that early treatment and management is key so please don't let other factors affect you from getting help for yourself