Day 1. Last night sucked. Got really suicidal and went to the liquor store, instead of doing something. Tried more skills in one night than I have in the past 6 mos. Nothing worked.

Went to a morning meeting before my IOP. One of the ladies did the typical, old timey AS thing "do you have a sponsor?" "Well, now you do." Turns out, she may be really good for me. She gave me a list of things to do, nothing too strange, and she also works in the medical field so the mental illness aspect isn't gonna be a major issue. She helps with a meeting on Saturdays that is open to discussion of meds in sobriety. Definitely gonna hit that one.