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Old Jun 06, 2017, 03:35 PM
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Hei T,

What you said today hurt. Basically everything you said today hurt.

I tried to explain something to you. You didn't understand at all. I got the expression that you didn't even try. You don't seem to get how disconnected I am from all of this. How I don't care about anything that happens to me. Stop trying to convince me that I should care. I know that.

Please stop asking me those stupid CBT-Questions too. I know those things work for some people. They don't for me. I can buy a workbook if I feel the need to...

I guess you had planned to stop what we were doing the past few weeks for a while. I'm sure you thought about it before we even started. So... I get why it's probably best to lay this on ice for the moment, but I don't get why we started at all then.

I felt like crying today. And no. Just accepting that this part of me exists isn't enough. Imagining to have taken care of her isn't either. Just so you know
Possible trigger:


I also know that things could have been worse. Really. I know that good things happened in my past, that I've probably had nice and healthy relationships. There's just no DAMN POINT TO IT AS I DON'T REMEMBER THEM.
I also know that I could be off worse.

I don't wanna see you again. I really adore you. You're one of the nicest people I've met in a while, but I can't let you mess with my brain that much.
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I do not wanna be afraid
I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
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