I always thought I was strange/mad/weird, but some things I experienced were stranger than others. One of the effects of the abuse I survived was to blame myself & label myself as mad. But I used to dream in Sign Language many times throughout my life. I've never learnt sign language (except how to sign my name - which I got wrong when I tried it with a deaf person). I thought this was an eccentric thing I had. But then while dealing with an eating disorder, someone asked "Does it feel like it's not always you doing the eating?" And something inside me just cracked wide open. All the alters came spilling out - Forest Jacq who mostly communicates with sign language, was the first one. When talking to others, my hands would start moving of their own accord signing FJ's own version of Sign Language, and my voice would promptly disappear. It's been 18 months since I got a formal diagnosis, but it's something that's been with me all my life. I was petrified at first - convinced I was gonna get locked up in a mental hospital. But it's been a mixture of liberating and scary since then. This forum has provided the most help I've had on the subject.