I'm working and it's really hard for me because I have Psychotic Disorder NOS.

I believe the government is experimenting on me with poisoning to make me a bad person like they experimented on their soldiers and the public.

They hurt me, they make it hard to think and focus and relax, my body aches and it's getting harder and harder to bathe and brush my teeth some days almost most days it's hard to do anything.

I wander around a lot aimlessly after work, I can't focus at work, and can't read or study anymore...

My emotions are so strong and hard to manage I feel suicidal most days but I don't want to hurt myself anymore than I already hurt...

I'm afraid this stuff is going to make me lose my job.

I'm on drugs to help me with this but they're not working and I don't want to take any more drugs because they're making me fat...

Someone please tell me I'm not alone here