MzJello, I looked at how long I was on my own and able to "survive" because of all my symptoms and defenses I'd chosen. I could shut up tighter than an oyster in no time flat. So, when I wanted to trust my T, I first realized that if what my T was saying didn't work or wasn't true or something, then my own defenses would work like they've always worked. So, I started to get a bit braver and try some things out and always noted that the T's ideas worked too and made me feel better than even my own.