]Ha i dont deal with it very well and cant explain my point of view to people because they care more about other people then what im trying to communicate and i keep seeking help and everone feels im safe where im at but its going trigger me and i will be in ip again or prison because i killed them or injured really bad by someone. and my issue is family wont let me do what i want and want me to take care of they needs,its not my responsibility to help 55+ people to doctors but my mother trys to be controlling and make me feel bad or threatens stuff. I cant focus on myself and needs when others want to put themselves before me,how do i handle this situation and do what i want to do? not to mention my sister boyfriend called me weak. sooner or later I'm going get to the point where i explode again.[/QUOTE]

I don't know an answer for you, but yes people can be very selfish. Putting their own needs before others. But, your mother may need your help, no? As for your sisters boyfriend, it is hard, but try to realize that this is someone who might be hurting and calling you weak to make their own ego bigger.. their own sense of who they are. You are human, we all are. It is difficult to deal with other people at times. Best thing to do is stay calm, go for a walk and vent here on the forums as much as you need to, in my opinion. Best wishes to you.