I think if your husband thought he'd be better off without you he would have left you. You have an illness and you've had a really rough year or two with that illness. You need a pdoc who listens to you and who is really good at treating you and a therapist and time for your body to adjust to some set of meds that isn't toppled by a pdoc change (why they think changing things they don't like abruptly is beyond me). And you need time to heal. You've been through so much and your body has been through so much.

You just have a lot to handle. I'm glad the babysitter is going to help out for a while.