He said that was a lovely letter. He said he felt privileged to earn my trust. He was sad to leave private practice but it was something he had to give up for his new position. He said he looked forward to hearing about what great things I would do. I said how will you know? He said you might be in the newspaper. Ha ha. I'm a low flyer. But he said I was very smart, very tough, and said he knows I don't believe it when people so I'm strong and resilient and I always feel like I'm falling apart. He said the strength was in acknowledging that and getting help. I asked him for a hug before I left. He said yes you can have a hug. He was warm, solid and comforting. I will miss him so much. I tried not to cry. Picked up the kids and went to the toilet and sobbed for a while. In a hot bath and the tears are still falling. It's hard letting go.