I am not an expert but what you describe sounds like depression. I am glad you are going to therapy. It is hard to reach out and make friends when you are depressed and I think isolation makes it worse--so you can't make friends because of depression and you get more depressed because you are alone. Sometimes the best thing about therapy is being forced to talk about your deepest feeling with someone again. If you have been depressed for a long time, you might have forgotten how to share your feeling with others. I was depressed when I first came to PC so the things people were saying at the depression forum really resonated. There were many encouraging people there. Many people at PC are in therapy and like to discuss it in the psychotherapy forum. Posting here and replying to posts can make you feel less alone. I hope you continue to post!