ahh, you all are so consistently kind and loving. Well, back to the pain clinic, pardon the pun. I like my doc there. I told her EVERYTHING. she gets it all, except the dreaded dependency of having to go the emergency room. And, in my case having one doc say double your pain meds for sciatica and my doc saying too bad, no more till refill day. That made me very angry. So a trip with no results really. She will tell regular doc that I need sleep aid that might help with pain. Going to try elavil for sleep.

However, here is where I am and my plan. I am slowly taking myself off from these allopathic meds and going to homeopathic. I have had a broken back since I was a kid and the first episode of bad back pain I was early 20's. They had me stay in bed for a month and take demerol. Did not help the pain at all but made me sleep. All I had to do was breathe and it hurt so bad I wanted to die. But I had never cried and moaned the way I did. Never Ever. (for pain) I feel powerless and this is a way for me to reclaim my power. I hate the feeling of not being believed, I know that 80% of that is PTSD, 20% is real. So I am on a new plan called living. I will start walking and graduate to more and more. I will use friends hot tub daily.

Whatcha think?