Dear T,
Can't wait to see you this week. Thanks for making the time.

Work feels insane right now. The Irony! They say that Life is what happens when you want to get other things done. I feel like it's the other way around. I want to get LIFE done if all this other stuff would calm down, I would be happy to focus on me. I'm finally starting to feel better about being with myself.

On that topic, I almost got a crush. I'm looking at that. I got hooked real fast and almost let myself get absorbed by someone else again. It's so easy for me to get lost in the idea of "Them" — I was only saved by the reality that she is straight. Whew! But this woman led me on a little bit. She fed that 'energy' and made me think she was interested in me. Weird. I wanna talk to you about it but I'm seriously wondering if this is something you can get. You don't know what it is to be Gay and have Straight women flirt with you for attention. , I'm even betting that you might have likely been on the other side of that scenario at some point. How many lesbian clients do you know have a crush on you?

Can I complain about this in your office, I'm wondering? "The annoying straight women who flirt for attention... " I'm already trying to figure out how to phrase it out of concern for YOUR feelings or perception. There goes my codependent side again.

Oh well. I'm gonna do it. Buckle up. You're a professional you know your job. See you soon.