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Originally Posted by disparaissant
I'm sorry you deal with all of those triggers, Crypts.
I could say all those things "trigger" me as well, except thunderstorms. They use to scare my mother deeply. I decided there was nothing to be afraid of, for my own sanity.
I feel like trigger, is a broader term, where it is actually an emotion or a replay of an event. But usually I feel anger, or guilt for something that I had done to cause my own harm....... I'd rather not get into that detail, but yes, I relived the events without knowing why, and without control. I feel like if I allow those feelings to come and go again eventually they subside. Just my experience, to allow emotions to be, they will either (E-Motivate), me to take an action (like, walk off the anxiety, or hit a pillow, or scream in my car), or it builds up and just causes another event to feel as though it can control me. Anger, in my own idea, is just something that didn't go our way. We need to accept that we have no control over anything but our own responses to things that happen in life.
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Triggers are not simple anger.
For example, thunderstorms - the slightest rumble used to cause me to freeze and go pale and cry. Now it isn't quite that bad. I still get scared at the slightest rumble - but I dont have the physical effects unless its more major. And its not just bc I am scared of storms. I used to play in them. Now, they remind me of a time when it was thunderstorming so hard the lightning was striking the ground n starting fires all over. I had been walking to meet an ex boyfriend when it started. He finally picked me up on his bicycle - but then thought it would be fun to have sex under a tree in that storm. I told him no. He threw down the bike n grabbed my arm n started running with me. I pulled free cuz we were so wet n bolted across the 4 lane highway without checking for cars cuz I was so scared. Just as I got across to where a restaurant was, a transformer was struck n the restaurant went dark. I was so out of my head I was sure the restaurant had just closed, and sank to the ground in a ball crying. It took ten people to coax me inside. A few minutes later, he showed up n sat across from me. I stared at him all through that thunderstorm. At the end of that thunderstorm, the sky turned a neon orange from all the electricity that had been in the clouds. It is the worst thunderstorm I have ever seen (without having hail or tornadoes) and it was made even worse by his actions. It completely traumatized me. Triggers are not emotions. Triggers are things that bring you back to an event that traumatized you and cause you to reexperience it in some way.