Yes, it does feel weird and unsettling. Not sure if I want to talk about it or not, just let it be. I want to play swaps with you. We have been meaning to for ages but we haven't. The work has got in the way.

It isn't fair. Why couldn't I have had a Mum like you. Why couldn't you have been there and saved me from it all. Not fair at all. I wanted that. I needed that. Love. Not too much to ask for, was it? No, it wasn't, well it shouldn't have been anyway.