Cyran0 - I'm tending to agree with your view on this. It's not like I wanted somebody else or am bored with my partner but maybe the sexual routine does just need to be changed every now and then. Thank you for your insight as you seem to be very knowledgeable.

Peacemaker and Raynaadi - She did not take it well that it was in my history but the major reason behind that was because I did not tell her about it. It had been a couple of days and I had not grown the courage to tell her what I did. Since then we have talked about it and she has said that if I really feel the need to look at it I could get some magazines or something but I just have to let her know about everything so it's not like i'm trying to lie or cover something up.

Mandyfins - I had not thought about that angle before of it being forbidden so I wanted to do it. I have heard the old saying and in many instances it can be true.

Since I looked at it and the confrontation was over we have talked extensivley about it and have worked out a lot of issues with it. It will just take time for me to accept what I did and to truely forgive myself and will also take time for her to be able to trust me again. But that is something I am willing to work on with her.

Thank you for your insight and I look forward to anybody else weighing in on the subject.