i have been offering things like that and he still refuses things like playboys and whatever else. ive seriously asked him like a dozen times and ive been open in telling him "if youre going to then just let me know." cause all my exes have looked at stuff like that but the difference was that they were open about looking at it so it didnt bother me.

we worked a lot out last night and i feel much better about it. i guess i kind of associate it with wanting someone else. but i guess its more like working himself up for me? i flipped out because when i found it i thought it had been going on behind my back for a long time.

it makes me feel a lot better knowing that its not strictly to see other girls naked. im not a guy so i dont really know why guys look at it. if i tried to look at those buff guys with thongs on i would just laugh. lol.

cyran0 - youre so good at explaining things. youre like my eye into the mind of my boyfriend lol. makes things easier. thanks.