Only the crazy stuff I heard about MPD in the media. I told myself as I began researching dissociation that no way I'm DID, no flipping way. As far as knowledge of my system I had memories of obvious switching and even knew the names of some of my parts and their roles, but I told myself these were just creative products of my strange imagination. And my having conversations with myself was just me being quirky. And I could go on. Champion denial, there.

Do you keep a journal? Does it help?