As you might be discovering for yourself, my occasionally being sober during the week never reduced the intensity or consequences of my next drunk...and that is because each drink taken demands more of itself no matter how long it has been since the last time. Beyond all of that, however, I finally realized being sober and even seriously meaning to stay sober never meant I was actually in recovery. Instead, my problems with sobriety always returned to the surface after the alcohol had again been removed.

My unsolicited suggestion: Drop the idea of "Don't drink one-day-at-a-time" in favor of actually taking the Steps as they are in the book in order to find a "sufficient substitute" (page 152) for alcohol. "Don't drink one-day-at-a-time" until you again end up drunk again and then rinse-and-repeat until dead is the insanity of today's AA killing real alcoholics one-debacle-at-time.