Hi Rainbow, I'm so sorry that this seems to be the path needed to get you where you are hoping to go. It seems very painful. I admire your courage to try something different and to stick with it when everything inside is screaming to do something else.

Have you and your T done any work around finding out how to comfort the different parts and how to have the "I"/Adult listen/mediate between the needs of the different parts? Or are you trying to just will power or tough love them into silence?