Dear MC,
I hope you write back in the next few days. I had this delusion that you'd respond last night, since you seem to have often responded on Tuesdays in the past. Plus I'm super anxious about T today, so something from you might have helped...though I guess that would have depended on what you said... But just whenever you have time.

I'm mostly wondering what you think of the idea, if H agrees (and I suspect he would, because he knows how I'm struggling), to focus on the transference for a few weeks in the hopes of resolving some of those issues and then we can focus pretty much solely on the marriage. Because I don't know how much longer I want to continue on in this state, of sort of touching on it a bit but not really, like just treating the symptom of the moment but not addressing the bigger picture. Because then it just festers more. I need the therapy equivalent of a strong course of antibiotics. Then if that doesn't help, need to think about walking away, I guess. Or figuring out other ways to deal with it.

Also hate that we won't see you till Wed. (which suggests the whole "walking away" option would be really difficult...since it's only 2 more days than normal...). But I think that's better than seeing both you and T within a 3-hour time frame...Because that probably would have overwhelmed my brain, based on the other couple times I saw both of you the same day...

Love,
LT