My dad was/is distant, scary, potentially violent, cold, enjoys hurting others.. He didn't want children yet held on to us to have a 'personality' of his own, to be able to call himself something - a 'dad'. My whole life I've blamed myself for not being good enough for him, but I've finally realized..

It wasn't about me!!! He is who he is, and he's like that with everyone. He's crazy. He's not able to see anyone for who they are, not able to appreciate anyone. Understanding this now is such a huge weight off my shoulders.. I can finally breathe a little easier