Oh, I know. And that's what MC said, too, or at least not to expect it to be that quick. But I also feel like I've been working on it little bits at a time for about 2 years now, so maybe it's time to try a slightly different approach.

Especially because, as I was saying to T yesterday, I feel like I'm in this place where I'm ready to change and move forward, but also afraid of it. Like with the standing up to/expressing anger at T/MC, the feeling less attached one week, then the next this big surge of transference. It's like I'm a teen who knows I need to separate from my "parents" and is ready in some ways--like, I want the car keys!--but also still wants them to hold me sometimes. In this case, not necessarily terminate, but just become less attached (so that I *can* eventually feel ready to terminate). And I want to try to do that while I'm in this sort of transitional state, rather than wait till I slip back into extended hopeless transference/attachment again, which I fear will happen.

I told MC in an e-mail this week how I feel like at this point, I'm not so much obsessed with him as a person (or his family) anymore, but with figuring out what he represents to me. He said that showed progress and said "good." So I guess it's more about wanting to further explore what he represents to me and what that means, rather than actually resolving the transference. (And then I can work on that stuff more with my T.) Because, yeah, I'm deluding myself if I think "OK, in 3 short weeks, the transference will be all resolved!" That sounds like some sort of infomercial for "Transference-B-Gone."