Idk I was depressed at the time so I was depressed, self harming, starving myself, and on antidepressants when I slowly starting looking out windows more thinking people were watching and thinking I had wires under my skin.

I was on antipsychotics for a while with the antidepressants and eventually I thought the meds were poison and flushed them. When my depression and the psychosis were gone I wrote it off and my doctor also wrote it off as the depression or a side effect of the antidepressants.

But then the paranoid and strange thoughts kept coming back every now and then and now here we are.