Honestly - though what the magician did is probably within his realm of "rights" to do - that doesn't make it "right" to do it...and it was not right. The person that said those things to you - I don't know if they were hurting themselves, perhaps angry or triggered, I don't know "why" they said what they did. Maybe the person is generally a good person, and had a bad day. Then again, maybd the person is just trolling the forums. No matter what the reason though - you did not deserve to be spoken to that way. Forums such as these are for support. If someone is unable to give that to the poster, they simply should not respond. You have every right to any and all emotions you ever feel and you never need to apologize for them. What the magician did was not something many people would appreciate. Something someone taught me a few years ago: i get to choose what it is i want to do, think, believe, and feel - nobody has the right to demand i change it. That's true for all of us. ❤