Maybe it's because we moved to a new city recently and I am starting over, meeting new people and building new friendships, but I'm very surprised at some recent discoveries about me. I had called my doctor to ask if I should be concerned with leg twitches I've been having lately (I was concerned about maybe blood clots), which I was sort of thinking were similar to the eye twitch I am commonly stuck with. He said he would like to talk to me about anti-anxiety medication... FOR ME! WHAT?? All this time I've been focusing on my fiance and his problems... I didn't think I had any of my own. I was really surprised to hear him say that, so I asked our therapist and she completely agreed that I have anxiety issues, (and friends also agreed). I thought I was just high-energy, a go-getter, Type A person. I'm very surprised to be finding this out at age 35, but when I asked some of my friends why they didn't point it out before, they said that it was so obvious that they thought I knew!

What!

So anyway, I finally had my appointment with the doctor today, and he prescribed Ativan for the as-needed moments and Lexapro as a longer-term behavior correction tool.

I'm nervous about going down this path... but it's just so ironic because I am really all gung-ho about other people getting help for their problems. I just didn't realize that something that is such a part of my personality is actually something I need help with. Who knew?

I guess I'm not asking a question here... just didn't know where else to process this new information. Thanks for reading.