I was depressed and went on a date - good idea I know. He called to say it wasn't a match. Then another time I went on a date and was a bit high and was sociable and ended up dating a guy from the party I went to. Life is just too unpredictable - I feel I'll never be able to keep a relationship.

Also, today I hit my dog for destroying important books that I had. He is often destructive, but I shouldn't have taken it out on him...
I acted like my dad did towards me.

I am just too much of a mess right now. I can't take it anymore!!!