I am very attached to my therapist although at the same time I am very avoidant too - I'm not even sure how these two things go together but they do.

I think even remember when did I first talk about my feelings but I suppose it happened somewhere during the first year of the treatment and since then, my feelings are no secret. Disclosing my feelings has had no adverse effects to my therapy, my T didn't get defensive, rejecting, more boundaries etc, rather he very naturally accepted my feelings. In general, it seems very natural to have these kinds of feelings as part of my therapy especially considering that as a child I wasn't attached to anyone. For me, this is the first safe attachment relationship and therefore extremely valuable.