Hey there Alpha91!
I'm glad you've made the trip and are enjoying family.
I don't know if it's a part of the disorder or not.
I experience this much more than I like. I think, in my case, that many years of severe depression has made me feel like I've lost parts of myself. I feel like I don't know myself, in some ways, as much as I used to know myself. I'd started with severe depressions 30 years ago now.
Is this a new feeling for you?
Yes, alcohol can make us feel less discomfort if we are uncomfortable in a social situation.
Always great to hear from you!

I hope you'll enjoy the day and the remainder of your time with family.

WC