Could you tell your therapist how you are feeling and see if there can be pushback against your insurance co to cover two sessions for a short period of time since you are at a sensitive point in therapy?

This is a particularly bad time to have this happen. I hope your therapist acknowledged that to you.

I think that something that is almost always involved in CSA is a failure to protect. There is the offender but usually another caregiver who fails to know or fails to protect. Many times, dynamics that were involved in the original trauma get played out in various ways in the therapy room. I would not be surprised at all if your inner self feels "unprotected" by your therapist from this abusive act by the insurance company. And you are acting as though thing are "OK" when really they are not--which is often another replication of the original abuse situation. This could be why you are having such strong feelings about this situation--emotionally it could feel very similar to the very things you have been recently talking about in therapy, this time with your therapist playing the role of the neglectful caregiver. And that is why you feel so angry--angry that she is not protecting you, and angry that you feel you have to hide your true feelings and act like all is OK when it's not.

The only solution for this is to discuss your feelings openly with your therapist. Ask your therapist to call the company and push back. Even if she is unsuccessful, you will have the experience of expressing your true feelings and getting a caregiver (the therapist) to take them seriously and attempt to address them. Even if your therapist cannot get the insurance company to comply, maybe the two of you could discuss other ways she could offer more support in a time-limited way, with the understanding that this is a particularly sensitive time.

Frankly I would not wait until your next session. I would call your therapist and express your true feelings and ask her to take action for you. This could be very therapeutic. Replications of past abuse dynamics can appear, emotionally, in the therapy room but they MUST be dealt with differently this time around.

I also just want to say, your feelings are totally understandable and I am sure I would exactly feel the same way. There is nothing wrong with your feelings at all. Many times, in a messed up abuse situation, the abuser sends the message that "what I am doing is fine. the only thing wrong with it is YOU, your feelings." It leaves the victim in a very confused state of mind and makes them wonder if the problem really is them. The problem is not you. It is totally normal to be upset and unhappy when the insurance company unilaterally makes a change like this at a difficult time with you. It would also be totally normal to be upset if your therapist acted like this was no big deal instead of understanding and anticipating what the effect would be on you. There is absolutely nothing wrong with your feelings on this and please, please, speak to your therapist to tell her how you feel and directly ask her to take action to support you.