Tuesday I hired a woman from craigslist to come clean my apt. My friend did a background check on her. Everything seemed fine. She left at 8:30pm and was going to come the next day to finish up. About 11 I go to get my meds, I had hidden them in my sons room. They were gone! I think she thought they were pain meds bc I have a very injured back. But I don't take pain pills. They were just psych meds.

I had to file a police report to get them replaced. I was out of them for 2 days. That means no sleep for me. I was crying, suicidal, angry, crying again, suicidal again, felt so violated. Oh she also took my house key. Had to get the locks changed. It's been crazy! I finally got about 5 hours sleep last night. Took extra zyprexa. I feel a little better today. I was headed into a mixed episode I think.

It's been a really tough few days.