I would speak to your T and express to her how you've been feeling. Perhaps there's something you both can work out to supplement it help you cope better while addressing your childhood trauma. Stopping now or withdrawing is not to your benefit. When open up wounds there are so many emotions involved and it's so convoluted that it might not make sense to us. If you bring this to your Ts attention she can help steer you in the right direction and help you understand your emotions better.