Never had attachment and when reading these forums I am eternally grateful for that.

The fact that I pay this person to listen to me, knowing fine well their interest would stop as soon as the money did is enough to prevent me going down that road.

Don't get me wrong, I like my current pdoc, it's taken me 17 attempts to find someone who has proved they 'get it' and doesn't tell me I am avoiding my feelings, or my personal favourite 'resisting the process'. (Eye roll)

I often miss appointments, don't care what he does with his day, I don't even think about him unless I am on here.

I enI totally understand the OP's desire to not get entangled in some pseudo relationship that the T may not have the capability to deal with.
If I felt for one moment that was a possibility I would be out too.
You can only do what you feel is right, and if you don't feel able to discuss it with your T then maybe it's right to get out. All the best, take care.