I am about to find out about a side of SSDI I have not had the "pleasure" of exploring before and am nervous and

I was on SSDI for over a decade. I got level with the right med cocktail eventually and therapy, went back to school, got a degree and certification. Went back to work, PT then FT. Used up my 9 trial work period months. Worked 2.5 years. Had a relapse last fall. Since I was in the 3 year reinstatement period, SSDI resumed no questions asked. It has been 6 months. I am better, attempted to go back to work, 2- 20 hour weeks, and this was the first 40 hour week so far and it was a struggle.

I found out from my employer that they may not be able to accommodate my doctor's restrictions despite telling me otherwise when I went back; they tell me this now after I have already been back at work. I now suspect it was so they would not have to pay the long term disability insurance which I now do not qualify for since I am back at work. I also am now past my 3 year reinstatement period. I am more angry than I can tell you.

I am still in the supposed 5 year period to file for a different kind of reinstatement, which I have to find out more how to do. But I do know the literature from SSDI mentions needing documentation. I hope it is different from having to file a claim initially. My doctor will help but it is the process that scares me. I will have to look into this further. However, if do not re-qualify for SSDI, and no long term disability insurance, how will I live?!!

I cannot work without those restrictions and despite not wanting to go back on SSDI, I need help. I should not have gone back to work. What was I thinking? Silly me for trying to get better, (as the tears come.)

I am nervous, scared, angry, stressed, and more tired than I have ever been. Too many decisions, too many unknowns to deal with right now, with bills to pay, and my health in the balance. I am going to try to stop crying now. ***Sigh*** WIll figure something out.

Thanks for listening.