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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
As we know...mom is here...yes mom. She's always told us that nothing happened to us as a baby....but she just told me that we/I were born a 7 month preemie.
Can this be it? Incubated for a month....We've been searching for the root tramua....and here it is I think.
Of course this screwed us for the abuse that came to follow...the destruction of our spirit for the next 18 years not being able to understand nor barely handle childhood into adult life...and then some even today 49 years later.
This of course has soften some resentments towards our father figure....now the blame is no longer his....not sure to where to go with all this....
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I have always known I was a premie baby but where I was born it was normal to have premature births due to many factors. I never considered this as a factor of my trauma's that caused me to become DID. when I think now about being incubated for me it was probably just like being in the womb... warm enclosed space with a food source, a source of oxygen, hearing my relatives voices, the feeling my parents touch. in short my premie brain didnt have all the neuron pathways of for example a toddler or preschool child, teen or adult... neuron pathways form from our experiences and new ones form every day with each situation we go through.. all my brain scans as a premie showed were the normal premie neuron pathways that every new born baby has... those leading to the parts of the brain for regulating breathing, eating, heart rate, basic things a fetus has while still in the womb.
suggestion maybe you can contact the places where you were born. they will be able to look at all the records that the hospitals have to keep on premies even decades ago like brain scans, vitals, what levels the levels all the machines were on when they had you in the incubator, they can tell you if there was anything abnormal about your brain when you were born.